Baby Steps

When I say I have to take baby steps, I really mean BABY steps. My body is so deficient in nutrients, it's crazy, and you'd think that it would be just perfect to add them in and, poof, feel better. But it doesn't work that way for me. Every time I take anything, my body reacts in some crazy way. For example, yesterday the only change I made in the daily supplement regimen, was that I added a half of a magnesium. Today I have felt like I have the flu, along with serious dizziness, itchiness, twitichiness, and all over pain and weakness. My husband is convinced that this is all MS...but whatever...I'm not sure it really matters what label traditional medicine would put on it anyway.

I think next time I will only take one fourth of a magnesium. I'm trying to figure out how to move forward and progress, without feeling too bad in the process. It is so hard. My MD just says to go as slowly as I need to.

Will I ever get better this way?

Last year, I decided I was so darn sick of being sick that I decided was going to flippin get rid of these infections once and for all. My mom came to stay with us while I took antifungals and antibiotics (natural ones for the lyme) and minerals and ginger and aloe and blah blah blah, and I ended up getting so sick I couldn't leave the house for 6 weeks (except to go to the hospital a couple of times). I had to quit teaching piano and choir (which I am sadly taking a long term break from at the moment) and suffered a hell that only my mom, husband and kids know about. I never want to go through that again.

I would just never touch that stuff again, except the problem is that all of my lab work and information, shows that I do have these infections, that my detoxification systems are impaired and that I am deficient in many nutrients that need to be replenished. On top of all that, my endocrine system seems to be all over the board. It feels impossible to make sense of it all.

All I can do is continue to move forward, taking one baby step at a time. I will do my best to believe that I CAN get better and hopefully my body will continue to slowly recover, even when it doesn't feel like it.