Sunday, May 30, 2010

My First Posting

Ok, so this whole blog thing makes my head spin, but I really think it would be good for me to get going on writing all the crazy thoughts and experiences I've had over the years as I've tried to work through the process of healing chronic illness. So here's the deal....I really don't even like the words chronic illness because it makes it sound like you are stuck with it. I don't believe I am stuck with it. I do believe that I can heal and get better over time. And that is what I intend on doing.

I do, however, feel like Humpty Dumpty. I'm 34 years old and have been pretty darn sick for about 7 years. (Although most people around me have NO IDEA how really sick I've been...which is a post for another day) I actually have had health setbacks for many years but after my 3rd baby, I got so sick it put in bed long term. I don't really want to get in to all the details right now, but let's just say that I've had debilitating pain and fatigue and about a hundred other wacky symptoms.

I know everyone is a little tired and achy after having a baby but I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about the kind of pain and fatigue that stops you in your tracks and keeps you from doing anything at all. Picture a young mother of a new baby sobbing and crawling through the house.

Anyway, my journey has been LONG and BUMPY and I've learned a lot! When you are faced with chronic illness, you find out that traditional medicine has its place, but can only take you so far. You learn that you must look outside the box if you want to reclaim your health. Then you get all excited when you discover there is a whole world of alternative medicine, only to realize that it is a jungle in and of itself. The light really turns on when you see that in order to navigate through this whole crazy thing, you have to work hard, pray hard, and listen to the inner voice that can guide you through it all.

So maybe "all the king's horses and all the king's men" couldn't put Humpty together again but I do believe that "all the kings horses and all the king's men" can combine their efforts with Humpty Dumpty and the king himself to work through it all, piece by piece.

So here it is...my musings on the ups and downs of healing chronic illness.